Searching

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Blindly I grope in the dark

Trying to find you within my heart

A heart so broken and mild

It ceases to breathe on its own

Because you have left it bare

Cold and beaten

Without your embrace

To comfort it

My soul cries for you

For your love that never came

My mind keeps yearning

For that day

I will find you again

Cake

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As I cut into the Center

Of the Red Velvet Cake

I saw a ring

He was on the floor

Eyes glistening

Lips smiling

Hand holding out

Marry me Clarissa

Tears in my eyes

Lips quivering

Hands clasping around the ring

I can’t

Feet took me into the street air

Heaving like I was drowning

Why did I not love him

Why could I not say yes

Converse

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He wore Red Converse shoes

I watched him walk away

Knowing he left with my heart

I was unfaithful

He knew I lied

His Rhythmic heart beat now weeping

I knew chances he gave me

Were exhausted

His love had been stained by me

Betrayed

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“Please don’t reject me tonight” he breathed onto her lips

“I…” she stammered

“I…I want…you to kiss me” she exhaled “Please…”

In the moment he pulled her chin up and kissed her with everything bubbling inside him.

The desparation, the need, the love mingled with lust. All he wanted was her, all he needed was her kiss and embrace.

She responded melting into him, letting her body and emotions speak one language. A language that her kiss spoke into his lips. Willing everythig to respond.

She needed him so much. He wanted her so bad.

Everything seemed to be going in slow motion as they slowly danced towards the bed arms intertwined, lips caressing, bodies combusting with need.

“Please give me permission to make love to you” he managed gently pulling away from her kiss and gazing into her eyes with a need she had never seen before.

“Yes…” she did not hesitate allowing him to slowly lay her on the soft beddings. She let go and let him kiss her some more…

11:26pm Saturday 14th Feb

“Another Valentines Day alone. He lied. Saying he’d be my Valentine. Waited for him on a cliff of my heart. He made me believe I’d be his Valentine yet he let me down going silent on me. I’m done with him, he’s no one to me” she thought bitterly

“I hate that I actually thought he’d be mine again. I shouldn’t have expected anything from him seeing that he never keeps his word at all. When will I get that person who will want me everyday of my life…” her heart cried

“His lies only Translated to my desparate loneliness” down to the floor of her bathroom she sank letting the tears flow

Blues

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I’m Singing the Blues in my mind

The boy broke my heart

He was fifteen

I was twelve

He saw her in a skater skirt

Left my hand hanging by my side

It was 13th February

I had a poem written for him

“Roses are adorable

Violets are cute

You and me forever”

Twenty  years gone

I am singing alone

Remembering

That boy who broke my heart

My twelve year old heart

My first crush

My first heartbreak

Now

Singing the blues

Before another lonely

Valentines Day