As I cut into the Center
Of the Red Velvet Cake
I saw a ring
He was on the floor
Eyes glistening
Lips smiling
Hand holding out
Marry me Clarissa
Tears in my eyes
Lips quivering
Hands clasping around the ring
I can’t
Feet took me into the street air
Heaving like I was drowning
Why did I not love him
Why could I not say yes
You are a Blur
A dream of the night
A fantasy of the mornin’
You came like a flood
Into my life
Then poof
You were gone
Before my heart could skip its beat
Or my mind understand fact
You moved too fast
Left me wailing your loss
Like a blurry image in traffic
I saw you leave me
I still dream of you, you know
I could use a Brilliant Disguise
To hide away my pain
When no one is watching
Or listening to my cries
I could fit the tears from my eyes
In a cup full of tea
So they never know I am in pain
Disguised as laughter
I can cheer on my heartbreak
Brilliantly cover my breaking heart
With a relevant smile
They never know my hurt
Or how I got there
Simply brilliant
My disguise of happiness
I experienced Pains and Gains
In a love that I thought was mine
You were never mine
Your heart belonged to someone else
You wanted mine
Yet could not give fully to it
It pained that I was not enough
Yet I had to let go
I gained your love
But it pained my heart
That I had to say goodbye
Poetry On My Mind 